What's Inside.

I don’t know what to talk about. Having mood swing is really a pain. Maybe that’s the result of letting out my feelings or pain I’ve been keeping inside. It’s like a burst, but in stages.

People would say I’m easily sulked right now. Well, yes. I’m expressing my mood, the way I want it. I can’t be the old me. Keeping things to my own really kills.

I haven’t got much attention, nor dare me to ask for it. I have nothing to focus at or much at least only for my job, which is sucks.

What the flower tells me; Rose, a loner. I could survive on my own, and very picky on people I’m letting into my life. Friends are dear to my heart.

Part of it, well, not part of it I would say. The statements are true. I’d rather be on my own, for some times. I could manage myself – maybe that’s why I hate people who’s clingy, or would ask me to do something they could. And friends, all people that I know, I’ve met, and befriended, are very much part of my life.

Picky on people I’m letting into my life; this might result to why I’m still single and browsing. I have criteria’s to be filled before I let people into my life. Life isn’t Myspace or Friendster.com, where you can add anonymous person into your own friends. That would be me, few years ago.

I’m doing Facebook.com, where I can approve and remove if I think a person doesn’t have anything to do with my recent life. I can’t go back to my past. I’m in the future. I’ve to let go things in my past life, and head over to the new horizon.

I know all this pep-talk won’t actually work on me, but I have to try.

I’ve bruised myself, and letting it bleed would caused my life. I can’t let this happens again, and I’m sorry for being me means I won’t be the person I used to. I can’t make joke of myself o make others laugh, and I can’t play perfect Barbie and Ken.

Stuck In The Past.

I’ve just watched Drop Dead Diva for like the fourth time. This is not a TV series created just for fun, but more likely for life, for keeping up self-esteem.

When it comes to the final episodes where Jane/Debs, figured out that she were actually helping out a scam, she was told by her assistant, “Do what you have to do”. She did the right thing though her career would be at stake.

And when GF Stacy asks her what she’s gonna do next, she said she should be moving on with her life, leaving the old Jane’s life, and starts over the new Jane. She doesn’t want to stuck in the old Jane’s life, grumpy all the time I guess.

The thing here is, that’s what actually I should do, move on. Grab the life by the disco ball if you have to, that’s what Jane’s mum told Fred. Maybe I should do that. Grab any chance. Try to improve life, though how hard it is.

You might have planned all your future lifetime, but sometimes things won’t go your way, and you left devastated. Have a Plan B, that’s what it is. Not all things you desired will turned out how you want it to be, so make a change, make a leap - says Rufus.

Have faith in yourself, take a risk. Don’t take life for granted. Just because you’re being comfortable at your state now, doesn’t mean you’re happy. Take a chance. Ask yourself if ever you favor yourself now, and forever.

As I am now trying to re-figure my life, maybe I should take a leap too. Do what I wanna do. Be I what I wanna be.

When you come to my situation, working 9 to 5, you would be feeling boring, trust me. You wanted to have a life, and you don’t know what it is. Figure that out and you will find peace in your soul. For me, I’m still figuring that out, and I’m gonna find it anyhow.

Life is harder than it seems, and it would go rough along the way you choose.

Terima Kasih Selsun.

Selama rambut aku gatal2, aku x dpt jmpe shampoo yang betul2 nye buang dandruff and flakes sampaila aku jumpe Selsun Blue.

Botolnye biru dan berharga sangat mahal.

Aku selalu beli tutup kaler ungu, tapi semalam aku try kaler merah. Berbau minyak angin yea.

Tapi takpe. Demi kulit kepale bebas dandruff, aku yakin dengan Selsun Blue.

Mau trim rambot hari Jumaat nnti. Masih mencari gaye rambut yang sesuei.

Sebulan subulum tahun 2010, aku memerlukan plan hidup yang rapi, sementelah ade beberape plan terpaksa dibatalkan.

Kuantan & Kepenatan.

Hell yeah. I woke up at 5am (x tido pun senanye), and get ready nk gerak pi Kuantan for site visit. Sementelah boss2 ku itu tidak mampoo ikot, maka aku pegi berdua jea dgn QS opis aku nih.

Sampai kat sane, tanye2 org sampai sesat. Sangat bengap yea, kate jea orang Kuantan. Which part of Kuantan pun xtau.

There's one guy told us to go for 2 km away afar from the actual place i should be.

Sangat2 penat. Owh, dan saye memandu dari Tol Gambang ke Tol Karak. Pencapaian baru. Sangat menakutkan memandu di dalam hujan.

Still moody sebab ade plak aku smpi kt opis ni terus2 nak terkam tanye2 itu ini. Aku baru jejak jea tu. Naseb aku x mengamuk.

New Layout.

Thank God. I love this one.

Will update later, when I'm free. Boss-free, work-free.

Happy X'mas.

Buhbye for now.

I Fall For You.

I fall in love.

With somebody who can't love me in return.

Who already choose to be with somebody.

It's painful, looking at something you really want, but you can't get.

I'm sorry I fall for you.

I just hope you knew. Know that I love you.